Ugh

I live such a weird life. Some would call it lonely, I'd say it's lonely at times. It's possible to be alone without being lonely, some people don't get that.

Anyway, weird life. First off, I spend too much time playing video games. Like when I halfway realise that I can't "play again" in real life. You get one go and that's it. I don't mind dying at the end of it, I don't mind aging either.

But I'd like to try again. Try out other choices, other lives. What is it like to be a soldier in Somalia? Probably bad, but still. How does chinese gold farmers feel about their lives? What is it like to be a girl? What is it like to be dumb? I've always been fairly good at understanding things, what is it like not to? To pretty much never understand what the teacher is talking about, and just feel dumb? Not that I understand everything, but in general.

And that leaves me with thinking how dreadful it is to choose an education. I get the chance to educate myself, and the government pays for it. Assmazing. But no matter what I think about becoming, I can't help thinking about the doors I close. Becoming a game designer will be cool, but engineering gets really tempting whenever I do technical stuff, and picking up a newspaper makes me want to study politics. 

I think I possess all the geek qualities.

• I'm not fit, I'm skinny (geeks are allowed to be fat too).
  
• Most of my friends are online. I know the real name of some of them, others I only know as Darkshrimp, Kharr or Moonies.
  
• I know computer stuff, and I can write in computer languages.
• I wear glasses.
• I get really shy around girls (It's offensive to ask girls out, fyi)
• I live by myself (not a requirement, but it helps)
• I look down when I walk. (makes it easier being lost in thought and still avoid things on the ground)
  
• But most importantly: The dream about saving the world, or anything special. A town, a maiden, a particularly well made cupboard.

Ah well, maybe I missed out on a few, let me know if you can come up with anything:)

However, I don't really feel bad about my life. I enjoy playing games, and being by myself lets me think about things. Like writing this post.

Some bloke outside the shopping mall handed me a flyer the other day. There's a picture of Jesus on a cross on the front, and the text says "This brochure should be read by everyone above age 12. It concerns everyone, regardless of belief".

I read a bit in it, and EVERYTHING is about Jesus. I get so provocated by that.

I wish I could do magic.

Iraqi reporter, throwing his shoes at Bush. Genious. Now they want to kill the reporter.